Words for Thought...

 Yes, I just purchased a University of Southampton Marine Biology hoodie that says “License to Krill” on the back.

No, I am not ashamed in the least. =)

So after months of anticipation and orientation last night, I’m ready to jump into next semester.

England anyone??

I wrote this a longggg time ago. Thought I would finally post it!

I don’t think anyone can truly understand anyone elses problems or situations. Regardless of who they are or how close they are to you. Even if its one of the people (outside of your family) who you feel like you know the best, and in a sense can read them like a book, from cover to cover.

This is understandable and everything, but what becomes difficult is when that said situation you are trying to understand is surrounded with pain. I’m not one - you can ask everyone who knows me - for being capable of not taking one others people’s problems. But I can’t say that I have ever been to a point where a person is in such pain that I cant take on their problem because it’s simply, or in this case, not so simply beyond my understanding.

With that being said, I feel like I am a very understanding person. People have always come to me for advice because for some reason I am able to see the situation from their eyes. But this is a new realm for me. I’m not used to not being able to advise at all, or feel like I am out of advice. Maybe some people can relate to how I feel. Honestly, at this point, I wish I could just give the same advice over and over again and feel like it’s doing something as opposed to this - feeling unknowing.

I realize that that may not be a word, but I feel like it acurately describes the situation better than another word could. So, I have arrived at this point: When one of the people who you care about most in this world, can no longer receive your help, what do you do?? Leaving that person to sort out their issues on their own time is out of question. However, stepping in and trying to solve those issues for that person, while it sounds appealing, is out of the question in the other person’s mind. So that brings us right back to square one. What do you do?

Pain of any sort is not easy, and anyone who has experienced for themselves can agree, that pain of the heart is fifteen times worse. Especially when it feels like you have lost control. I think that the majority of heartache stems from a lack of control, either one person’s side or both. After all, as I have been told many times before, “it takes two to tango.” However, with that being said, although many may feel like I dont understand the pain of not being able to have the one thing you desire more than anything, I do understand this: You have to know when it’s your time to bow out, to take your leave in a sense.

I understand not everyone believes in God, but how I see it, is that God places people in our lives to make an impact. That impact may not always be a good one, or it may be left in pain. But one thing I do know is that those people are not meant to stay. Yes, it is alot easier for me to say this being on the other side of the conversations, but I think it’s safe to say I have learnt quite a bit in my nineteen years. I have dealt with certain situations I never imagined I would have to, and I’m still dealing with them to this day. Maybe this just also has to be given to God, who knows? I know it has become a issue that is beyond my control, not to mention it was not my issue to control in the first place.

As much as I hate it, “time indeed heals all wounds.”